Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Growth and Development of This Woman Through Song

Words hit. HARD.
First Love- Adele
"Forgive me, first love."
One of the most powerful songs I have ever heard.
I'm still so sorry, Joe.

Love Fool- The Cardigans. 
"I don't care if you really care, as long as you don't go."
This is for a once-weak me.

Boats and Birds- Gregory and the Hawk
"I live to let you shine."
Do you know what it means to love so deeply, so selflessly that letting go is the only option?
Sometimes, you have to let them leave.  Even if their going doesn't to make sense to you.

"I never thought they would ever deceive me.  Don't ya know, when times got rough, I was standing on my own."
Know your friends.  Learning yourself is a lot easier if you can trust the people that you surround yourself with.

Pumpkin Soup- Kate Nash
"I'm not in love... I just wanna be touched."
Sometimes successfully dating while maintaining 'good girl' self control... is well, hard.
[and can potentially lead someone on]
yikes bikes.


"I wanna go back to yesterday, but it's not the same"
Now, things really are different. 
Keep family first.

Dog Days Are Over- Florence and the Machine
"Leave all your loving, your longing behind.  You can't carry it with you if you want to survive."
Do you.  No one can bring you the happiness that you can find in yourself.


Where I Stood- Missy Higgins
"But something told me to run and honey, you know me... it's all or none."
 I wish I knew when this marathon will be over.  There's no choice but to keep up.  And it kills me.  

Take Off Your Cool- Norah Jones & Andre 3000
"Baby, take off your cool.  I want to get to know you."
It's hard to be real with people after doing so in the past was disastrous and you find yourself wishing you hadn't.  Letting someone in is dangerous.  And terrifying.

The Quiz- Hello Saferide
"There are things you need to know about me.  I am weak right now, so weak right now."
Riiiight about now.

Nude -Radiohead
"Now that you've found it, it's gone.  Now that you feel it, you don't."
Don't expect. Anything.
But don't sabotage what could be.
[I listen to this over and over]

I listened to music all day and cried.
There's tea, and a warm pup by my side.  
And an empty sketchbook.
There's a sparkly new addition to my dull, stained life.
Talked my Ma up for hours last night and got the ill advice.
Support Group Meeting March 13th.
Waiting on the next response from the Aquarium.
I feel so loved.
Things are aligned. 

I just hope the stiffness in my legs and pain in large joints
 the last couple of days is some kind of a joke.

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