Cattitude Vs. Battitude

I woke up this morning feeling like this:

But after moving on...

I got to spend the better part of the day in a Special Effects Lab in Woburn.  Since I was a kid, it has been a dream of mine to work in the Jim Henson's Creature Shop in LA.  Seeing some of the stuff our new friend has worked on was incredible.  I felt very lucky to have been able to take up some of his time for our feature film project, which you can check out heeere.  Severed limbs and movie monsters aside, the experience was super influential and made me think pretty hard about getting my creative junk a-scooting.  Goodness, I miss this show.

A lot of the weird withdrawal symptoms that I've had since stopping steroid treatment have gone.  My teeth aren't nearly as sensitive, so I can smile outside now.  That's pretty cool.  Arthritis is always a pain in the joints [hey-ohhh], but I'm dealing.  No more rashes, though.  And plenty of vivid nightmares.  Sweet!

Waking up with so much pain and having to go somewhere, like physical therapy and the imaginary dream job that I have downtown, make it a lot easier to ignore.  If you're sick, and you have to stay in with your pain and stress, you'll stay sick longer.  For me, being active, out and about during the day, is stuuupid helpful.  Even if I really have to push myself to get out.  When your mind is on something else, its NOT on being sick.  While I was working full time and trying to brush off my arthritis almost a year ago now, I was so focused on making that money that I ignored the pain.  It sounds crazy, but it really did help to move my little body around.  These days, rather than emotionally explode like one of my favorite comic villains because my physical limitations frustrate the hell out of me...

[and may I just say, that this is still the only acceptable portrayal]

I try to keep calm, and think out every situation I'm in.  The days of Prednisone are over, and there's no excuse for blowing up when I'm stressed.  It can actually keep you sick!  It does help though, that most of my stress is melting away with oncoming Crohn's remission.  Positive attitude is everything.  Now, I am proud to say that I try to sit aside and watch things play out with a sharp eye before making my move.

I TRY.