The Bug

I am happy to announce that I am kind of, almost, just about not on bed rest anymore.  After Christmas, I started getting a pretty high fever that got lower but never really went away until the past few days.  Weird, I know.  When you have a disease and you are attempting to make that last ridiculous hurdle into remission, you've gotta look out for such things.  I have autoimmune arthritis.  Now that things have gotten slightly cooler, and I say slightly because I haven't really truly been outside in about a week and the sun has been dutifully shining through my window to give off lovely, healing light- leading me to believe that the snowflakes that have fallen are prop winter effects by some dude on my roof, I am on my awesome white sofa most of the time.

It sucks not to be able to move.  Even turning my head is a fight.  The good part?  My BRAIN isn't on sick leave.  I've got so many ideas for creating things when my hands are ready to jump on that band wagon.  I've been scribbling them down in a huge desk notebook that my beautiful friend Trish gave me for Christmas.

By the time I'm able, I'll have my work cut out for me.

When you have a strong feeling to do something, and you can't follow through with it when you get the idea, write it down!  We as sickies have quite a bit of time when we're held up by being stuck in bed [or in the bathroom].  My latest idea is top secret, and I'm pretty sure that the ones I have told think I'm a nut job for it.  But really, what else is new?  I can't seriously ever finish anything I start without being sick, so even thinking about attempting something seemingly big must make me sound like a tremendous overachiever wannabe.

I don't care!

So what if I want to build a dollhouse out of twigs?  Who really cares if my BRILLIANT idea for bird feeders made from old signs is a bad one?  Oh really, you think so?  That's cool, I hate your shoes.

My point, if I can bring myself to it here, is that no matter what anyone expects of you- no matter how you feel about not being able to have a 'Real Job'... make your days enjoyable for yourself in any way that you see fit.  I'm serious.  Are you too tired to suit up?  Wear effing sweat pants!  Is your hair straight up textbook madman?  

Sweet.   Mine too.

Now think of 5 awesome things you want to try to do when you're feeling a little better!!  I'll race you.

Go!