I've been trying to remember what I used to do as an able-bodied young woman. Today, I am more of a homebody, enjoying the thrill of completing crossword puzzles and rewarding myself with a nice prune.
The funniest thing is that that's all true.
The Yahoo Daily Crossword is my jam. Is it also so wrong to want to sit and enjoy a nice puzzle on a spring evening, too?
Hush up. I like being inside.
I also like being outside. It's just that I do't have all of my strength back. Gaining 25-30 pounds can be tiring, and very difficult. I'd like to be at full health, participating in things like the Tough Mudder with my friends. Way to kick ass by the way, Christine and Mike! I 'd like to think that I could have done that thing blind-folded while on steroids. Grr.
Do you ever have nights to yourself that you decide to spend in the house, on projects or just relaxing? Do you like it? Or would you rather be dancing at a discotech with your pals? And oh my god, what do you wear?? The thought alone gives me heartburn.
Being close to remission, but not quite there yet, it's easy to jump the gun and use a bunch of energy that you think you have, only to return to your dwelling as a useless, mushball. Or worse, you might not get through the time that you planned to be out, and have to cut the night short [I hate that]. There's nothing wrong with pacing yourself, giving your body what it needs to really heal up so that you can spend nights on the dance floor with your gal pals in a skanked up dress that you found in the back of your closet that you wore like 4 years ago. You'll probably look like you're trying too hard- and you will be. After a while of being cooped up inside, you start to forget what it's like to have the option to get out there, and you won't know where to start with wardrobe. Ask your chums and do it together!! That's the fun part of getting dolled up and shaking it.
I'm going to a Dubstep thingy tonight in Cambridge. I look forward to it. Even though there will undoubtedly be young ladies there, scantily clad in tube tops when it's not quite warm enough yet, to make me feel like this guy.
I'll try to remember that I'm just as bodacious a babe. Because it doesn't matter if you feel like you don't measure up in social scenes. You do. And you'll be able shake that thang like nobody's biz again. Just you wait.
